Basically this means that my body produces insulin, but it either doesn't produce enough or it doesn't know how to properly use
what insulin is available. Basically meaning that no matter what I do or did, my body has a flaw and I need medicine daily to correct the error. Of course this means that I need to be much more aware of what I eat. And I will be on a medicine called Metformin every day, twice a day, for the foreseeable future. I need to go back to counting carbs with a vengeance. And fortunately, I get to increase my calorie count to 2000 calories a day, my post-pregnancy nutritionist said 1600 calories or less per day. That's so hard to do right now. But I don't have a choice.Surprisingly, I am so sad. I feel like crying all the time. It's not like I haven't been in this situation before. The last time I actually cried. I was so upset. The doctors at Mercy (evil bitches that they are) made me feel so bad, and told me all the things that could have been wrong with my baby due to my high sugars. They scared me to death. I changed my entire life in 2 days. This time around, I have already made most of the changes, so what do I do now? I need to go grocery shopping for one. I need to find better ways to eat and to purge my kitchen of pasta. I need to find a way.... Dr. Nowak wants me to lose 2-3 pounds a month. At that rate, it will take me a year to lose the weight I have gained back since March. Ugh. I want to crawl into my bed and sleep. For a long, long, time.
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